2021, last weekend

Ending my year in gratitude and resurrender.

The first would be my marriage. Staying so close with someone for an extended period can be exhausting. There are moments of "oh, you used to be" and "what's wrong with you."

We have both learned that marriage did not and will not stop right at the vows we exchanged. It took us time to fight the differences and find constant alignment to our choices and for each other. Ultimately, we must remember why we started and move forward, not avoiding the problems but finding creative solutions.

Marriage is a partnership. Both parties have to meet in the middle of change. I have learned to be a better communicator too. It's less of flirting but more precise with my needs and wants in the daily conversations. "The man doesn't usually get if we drop them too many hints." Well without a doubt, I am glad that we've both made choices to stay together. We couldn't have done this well without God's intervention all the time. Through prayers and community, we know God is always with us and for us.

Second, it's family and friends. Family time has shortened this year, as many could not gather in groups. Yet, there is still some intimacy growing unknowingly. I have also learned to see and understand the need for friends to come and go. It is through the season of different meetings that we can thrive. No matter how similar the route seems, we will need some newness. Every seed needs a chance to sprout, on different soil and weather.

Lastly (in this writing), it was slowlivecreate that happened. I did not have any proposal of how this should go, but I've got DaddyGod, who knows best. Surrender becomes attractive when I know I need God for everything. slowlivecreate could not have happened to me if He did not woo me to yield in Him. This dependence is being honest that I am nothing without God. All at this moment is God's glory.

2022 may sound like 2020; I hope you'll believe with me that there will be reasons for you to move forward. May you experience the joy and the grace to surrender. Get deeper and ask questions you have not so that as you’d live intentionally, and eventually find yourself walking closer to the river of life.

My soul resolves to give You all
We wanna go deeper
Than ever before
You're all we desire
We just want more
We wanna go further
Whatever the cost
You're the Rock that we stand on
In God, we trust